shoot.

i just realized how screwed i am for my math test tomorrow.
i can't afford to fail.

and journalism is starting to consume my life.
well, not really, but i think i bit off a little bit more than i can chew this issue.

i don't like killing the ants in my bathroom sink.
i don't even know how they get there, but i always feel bad when i squish them.

once i put one in the toilet and peed on it.
i felt really bad after.

i just started my period.
it sucks.

i knew it was gonna happen today, like magic.

i have a game tomorrow.
urg.

i just don't know what to do with myself right now.

and i still have to read frankenstein .

kill meeee.

currently.

hating my laptop at the moment.

it froze on me at least 3 times today !
what madness !

i'm just trying to play a little bit of sims and WAAPAHH, it just dies.
how lame.

the past couple of days have been pretty great.

i got to spent a lot of time with all my family and such.

it sucks that my dad's still in korea though ):

i miss him, but i know he's having lot's of fun with his family so i'm happy.

I've been bumming out and eating like a beasty lately.

ate three plates during thanksgiving.

wanna know what i ate?!

turkey, stuffing, mashed potatoes, dokbokee. nakcheebokum, spanish rice, pork chops with potatoes, veggies, pumpkin muffin, carrot bread, pumpkin pie, udon, and ice cream.
it was the beeeest.
american food, korean food, and mexican food just mesh so well together.

but now i feel like a fat arse.

i did go running today.
i actually worked out a lot today.
i ran around my whole neighborhood, looped back around so i could walk it again with my mom, and then went for this crazy walk on this trail thaang with katie.

but then i ate leftovers and this party mix stuff when i got back home.
fail.

i love being at home.
it's fantastic.

oh! and i took a three hour nap.
that was pretty great.

well, since my laptop won't let me play the sims, i think i'm going to go watch tv.

i really want to have a movie night.
that would be quite fantastic.
with mucho food and yar.

"homegirl at the front decided to be a beezy"
HAHAH. that made me crack up.
gracias for that jam es.

and before i leave, i'd like to state what i am thankful for.

my wonderful family and friends that support me through all i do.
having a roof over my head.
being able to live comfortably.
having everything i need and most of the things i want.


thank you mother and father for working so hard to provide for our family. you guys are the most generous people i know and always find a way to help out the less fortunate. you guys always seem to surprise me throught your kind actions and i'm so thankful that God blessed me with you guys. thank you for always supporting me and being so understanding. I know i may be difficult, but you guys always find a way to deal with me. Thanks for teaching me how to be a good person and although i should appreciate you guys a lot more than i do, i'd like to let you guys know that i love you with all my heart and that you guys are the best.

to my brother...the best big brother ever, and i'm not just saying that cause you're my only brother, thanks for everything. you put up with me and do your best to try and understand my waack logic. you're always there to make me laugh until i pee and dance with me in the car. and even though i tell you i hate it, i secretly appreciate the fact that you're always looking out for me when it comes to everything. so thanks for the years of laughs and everything. i love you !

to my fam:
love you guys for always being there for me. i love my crazy family. my crazy, supportive, and hilarious family. they're the best, and even if i might not understand half of them half the time, it's all cool because actions speak louder than words.

to bahara...my first real best friend. We've been through so much and although we would seem to be the two most different people in the world, we're more or less exactly the same. this year has been tough with everything that went down and the whole moving to yorba linda thang and whatnot. it's been crazy, but i know that we'll always be best friends. we've gone through to much not to be. we owe it to ourselves. i miss you more than ever and even though we don't talk as much as we used to, i still love yah like crazy! thanks for everything and thanks for always being there for me. Through all the boy troubles and deaths, you were there and i know you always will be.

to katie and alysoon:
you guys are prolly the only ones that will read this and i'd like to say...thanks for everything besties ! i know we've said this millions of times, but i love how we can just continue from where we let off even when we haven't spoken to eachother in forever. the three of us were bound to come together and become besties sometime or another. thanks for letting me insult you and not taking it personally unlike some people (:
all the late night detective work, sleepovers, inside jokes, venting, and grubbin out has been the beeeest. hope there's more of that to come. this is awkward. bye.

jam es:
there's already a whole post dedicated to you.
har har !
love yah best frand (:



p.s. this is blog number 69
HAR HAR !

FREAKIN JAM ES

haha, i've decided that since you've finally let me discover your blog i will dedicate this post to you.

i totally got your allusion to me when you said, "i can feel in in my toes"

when i'm reading this in my head while i write, i have an accent. it's quite strange.

so, since this is about jam es, what to i say?

i shall say, ouch my head hurts and i am currently texting you right now.

did i tell you that i got a new chair for my desk?
it's pretty amazing and makes me feel like a CEO of some humongo company.

i look forward to seeing you on friday and catching up on all the things we must catch up on.
it's to bad that you can't sleepover you spoonful of lame sauce.

so let's reminisce...

i've known you for all your life.
haha, i'm 4 months older.
exactly 4 months :D

my friend sent me the powerpuff theme song.

i haven't started any of my homework yet.

anyways, back on topic...

yes, we've known each other since forever and are BEST FRAANDS.
and strangely, we didnt actually start talking a lot till like last year was it?
or this year?

hmm, no se.
thanks to texting.

uhhmazing.

i need to go check my temperature.

good bye.

arf.

i'm really craving ice cream.

and i want a big chair.

i hate the chair at my desk.

someday, i'd just like to throw it out the window and watch it get hit by a car.

just thinking about it makes me angry.

i'm a tornado of anger, my blood pressure is dangerously high right now!
HAHA.

love that quote.

there are redick amounts of things that tick me off.

OH NO PMS is coming early.

redick.

i am pretty uber tired at the moment.

i made alysoon tortilla soup and oatmeal chocolate chip cookies.
i hope she feels better.

not much to say.
i really want to go to disneyland.

like really really.

take me there por favor.

this kid.

i just read through all my old blogs.

all i can say is...wow.

a lot has happened since i've started this blog.
and i mean a lot.

look, it's a double whammy blog today.
amazing.

from reading what i wrote in previous blogs, i'd like to make the observation that i'm quite the insightful one.

i made a promise that i'd sleep before 12, but that was obviously a fail.

anyways, getting back to what i was previously talking about.

i really like the word absurd.

i was right, i totally just cringe when i read some of my blogs.
i can't even bear to read them.
it just brings me back to times i'd rather not talk about.
forever forgotten.

i've come a long way in the past however many months i've used this.
goals have been achieved.
dreams have been shattered.
boys have come and go.
friends have left and been made.
i don't think that i'm a totally different person, but the things i've learned the past few months have changed me.
i'm hoping they've changed me for the better.

i should sleep.
lateski !

i laugh at you !

word vomit.

i haven't been on this baybaay in forever.

it's not that fantastic.
no one even reads it y'know?

i am actually considering the fact that i have an attention disorder.
it's really, really, really hard to concentrate at times.
and i even space out during the most intense moments.

for example...my soccer game.
i didn't even know it was possible to space out during a soccer game!
it's so intense all the time and what not.
but of course, i would find a way to space out.

well, i'm writing a bunch of articles for the paper this issue.
oh yeah, that's what i should've said.

i really like those i spy books. well, not ispy, but this other one.
i have no idea what it's called, but when i was a kid, i could spend hours looking at it.
it seemed like everything just stopped for a while. it seemed like the things that made up
the pictures were the most amazing things ever.
i miss that book. i wonder where it went.

i've been making new friends in my english class (:
i'm pretty glad about that. i may be called weird multiple times in that class, but it's so worth it.
see, i don't know the actual meaning behind that.
when you call me weird, do you not want to be my friend or do you?
well, it doesn't matter. i get my kicks.

i got a mirror in my room.
it's really cool.
it's beautiful !
it makes my room seem bigger and it's like a portal into a new world. uhhmazing.

i kinda want to try playing call of duty.
from what i've heard, it's controversially fantastic.
yes, yes, yes.

this one kid has a marshmallow shaped head.
it's quite funny.
he's a jerk, but at the same time, i can't stop talking to him.

that reminds me...i had a conversation with chen after school.
she asked me what my relationship with this one kid in her class was and to tell you the truth, the things i said kind of shocked me.
i mean, i talk to this kid, and i love talking to him, trust me...i do, but he doesn't seem so fond of me.
well, i don't think he dislikes me, but at the same i hate putting commas before the "but" it's so annoying.
as i was saying, i don't think he dislikes me, but at the same time i don't think he likes me.
you know what i'm saying?
and yet, i always try to conversate with him.
even when i tell myself not to and that he'll talk to me if he wants to, i can't help but talk to him! It's bizarre. and i kick myself every time i talk to him first.

ouch, my head kind of hurts.
shoot, i have to looks stuff up for journalism.

what am i doing?!

wow, i just realized that the title to this blog is very fitting.
i guess i just subconsciously knew that i'd vomit up my words like i'm doing now.

i remember when i was in 6th grade, mr. black told us to memorize the keyboard like our house.
and when i made that reindeer thing on paint and that one kid told me he liked it.
yeah, i didn't say anything, but he kept insisting that i do.
JERK.

hm, bacon sounds good.

goodbye.
i must get cracking.
is goodnight one word or two?
good night?
goodnight?
ehh, does it really matter?