the soup

SHOOT.
give up.

woam

so...i really wish i had a printer in my room.

birfday morning realizations.

so, it's the morning of my birthday and here i am blogging.
i don't really know what possessed me to come here to write, but here i am.
so i started reading my blogs from the past, and wow, let me tell you...it's really strange.

when i look back now, it's weird remembering all that has happened in such a short amount of time. when i read the words i wrote, i can't specifically remember the people i was talking about, unless i actually typed their name, but i can remember the feelings that consumed my body like the plague. extreme happiness, extreme sadness, and extreme infatuation.
it's funny to see how my moods could have elevated then dropped so quickly.
but i guess that's teen angst eh?

a lot has happened this year.
it's weird thinking that another year went by so quickly.
it seems that every passing year just goes by quicker and quicker.
but i guess that's growing up eh?

it's funny cause when i was looking back, i can tell when i thought i was in love. or when i thought it was the end of the world. or i thought i could never be as happy as i was in that moment.
i've learned that life truly does go on.

i'm still here today, here, typing this.
i've learned so many things this year.
so many life lessons.
it's made me grow up a lot. i realized that although everyone wants to stay a child, eventually you do have to grow up.
no, you don't have to lose everything, but you do have to start taking responsibility for your life. no matter how painful and difficult the journey is, if it's not okay in the end, it's not over.
the road of life is a confusing one, but it's worth it.
everyone knows that they're gonna die someday, but it doesn't stop us from living.
i believe that life is limited for a reason.
if we knew we had all the time in the world, nothing would get done and life would be meaningless.
knowing that we're on some kind of a deadline gives us that extra push to strive for greatness and strive to enjoy every precious moment we have left.
no one ever knows when they're going to go and yet, they believe they're invincible and that there is all the time in the world.
i believe that many people young and old don't understand that time is limited in this world.
it doesn't matter if you're rich or poor. i believe that as long as you're happy, life's mission is accomplished.
i don't want to die selfish. i don't want to die regretting. i don't want to die thinking i could have done more "if only".
i want to die happy and proud of what i did in my life.
i know that i will make stupid decisions along the way, but that's all part of the experience.
live and learn.
and thanks to a special person, i've learned that life is a celebration.
it is something that should never be taken for granted.

yeah, it is kind of ridiculous how much i've come to realize this year.
i know when i look back on this, i'll be awed. or annoyed. either or. i guess we'll have to see.
i know it may sound like i think i know all about the world now, but i know i still have a lot of growing up to do.

i feel that you know what the point of life is better when you're younger.
your thoughts have yet to be shifted by the outside world.
the goal in mind for a happy life is clear when you're young and naive.
when you grow up and life touches you. that is when things go haywire.
and that is why people lose sight of what is really important.

i'm only 16, and yet to be truly corrupted by the outside world, but i've seen and heard about a lot. i may not be the brightest kid, but i believe that i know what is important in life. my vision of what should be achieved may be blinded sometime, but without that, what would life be, but perfect and utterly boring. no journey, no destination.