that feeling that you feel on the insides.

no, it's not a good feeling.
it sucks.
it's like weird.
and hard to describe.

i don't know sometimes...i really don't.

i look at all these people and see all their friends and whatev and i'm just like, "damn, i suck."
i guess it's better to have a couple of close friends than a bunch that mean nothing to you. Even if this is true, i still can't help but want more than i already have. Maybe it's just me being greedy and not appreciative but, what do you expect from me? I'm a teen with raging hormones and mood swings.

i just always feel like i'm being compared to my brother all the time and how he can have like millions of close friends while i only have a few. thanks, way to make me feel crappy. i appreciate it.

and everyday i wake up and tell myself it's going to be a better day but, hey...i guess optimism isn't enough for change these days. now what? i always tell myself that it'll get better and i just have to live life everyday like it's my last but, as you can see...it's not working out so well.

i sound so depressing and gay.

i hate people who always complain about their lives and crap but, here i am.
hi hypocrite.

but, i guess it is my blog and i can do whatever the heck i want.

i guess i just hate when people post bulletins on myspace or something saying that their life sucks and stuff. now that's gaaaaaaay.

my life doesn't suck, no it doesn't but, sometimes i just wish for more.
i've always been a daydreamer and i guess that's been the death of me.
i have expectations and dreams that never come true. suuuuuuucks for me.
and darn being a hopeless romantic.
i always think that hey! one day it's gonna happen and i'm only a freshman but, it's kinda hard to stick with that motto when all around me people are falling in like.
please, if there's something wrong with me...do tell.
do i smell?
do i have stuff stuck in my teeth?
am i horrendously nasty looking?

i'll wear a bag over my head if that's what it takes.

...just kidding...that's just degrading and weird.

anyways, i have to go do homework and stuff.

see yah.

i like pineapple pizza.

I like pineapple pizza. yes. it's true.

It's really hard to be grammatically correct and punctuate everything properly on here...so i'm not even gonna try.

I like that song don't trust me. it's catchy.

Well, let's see...anything i want to talk about? Hmm...how am i feeling?
I really like rhetorical questions.
I actually can't wait for school tomorrow. Besides the homework part. I kinda just want to go and talk to people and see my friends. My dad said to be more outgoing and hey...it's not working out so great but, i'm trying! and that has to count for something right?

I've realized that i've become a dress person.
surprising they're very comfortable and there's a nice breeze.
HAH.
that's kinda awkward.

POOP.

I miss olive.

OMFG. SWINE FLU! WE'RE ALL GONNA DIE.

i just realized that i added myself as a follower to my own blog...so if you were wondering aboot that, pay it no mind.
but, i did find it funny when someone pointed it out to me.
and i laughed until i almost peed.

well, i live quite an uninteresting life so...bye.

nvm.

when people write about their feelings its cool and all intense and stuff but, i think it'd be weird if i did.
maybe i will one day.
maybe.

stupid vombre.

so i won't name names but, ugh...stupid vombre.

darn him to heck.

and that girl who always talks to him !

well, to bad that girl is really nice and we're friends and stuff cause if we weren't, i would be very upset.
she's just a flirt is all.

it's okay though cause...i've kinda found someone else?

naww. well, maybe?

he's a little on the short side though. have your growth spurt darnit !


anyways...yeah.

that's all that i really needed to say.

if anyone is even reading this...

WHALE !

whoa.

this is like a diary...online.
freakydeaky.
what if i get stalked?

anyways...i have a blog !
whoo.
so, i'm not the most interesting person in the world but, hey! if you have to much time on your hands...read this !

lemme tell you aboot me day.

i wake up and can't find anything to wear !
well i was gonna wear my awesome tie-dye dress but, that was short lived and then i was gonna wear this tank top thing but, it made me look weird and didn't match with my shorts and like ten minutes later after changing a billion times and fixing my hair a million more times i ended up wearing pretty much what i wore yesterday.
Don't be like..."eww gross, she wore what she wore yesterday!"
wrong.
the clothes i wore today were all clean and the shorts were different but, i wore the same tank top in a different color.
anyways...

by the time we go to pick up the people we carpool with, we are like 10 minutes behind schedule and we also figure out that the stupid traffic lights aren't working!

why did i have to choose today to be a diva and go through my whole closet!?

anywho...

i was late but, then we tested and whatnot. and blah blah.

then lunch.

then spanish.

then english...i walked there half sortaish with william who is a total CREEPER. (hi! i know you're reading this)

then to journalism which kinda sucked cause freaking spamela gave me hand sanitizer (which i was greatful for at the time) that smelled like shi shi.
it gave me a HUGE migrane.
thanks.

then i had to go to the orthodontist and then i ate tacos cause it was 3 for $1 tacos at del taco.
ate.
took a nap.
went to practice.
home.
shower.

now i'm pretty much here.
well, i did watch the deadliest warrior with mi hermano.
that show is INTENSE.

anyways. i'm boring myself.

if you're still here...
thanks for reading about my life i guess.

IHOP TOMORROW !