that feeling that you feel on the insides.

no, it's not a good feeling.
it sucks.
it's like weird.
and hard to describe.

i don't know sometimes...i really don't.

i look at all these people and see all their friends and whatev and i'm just like, "damn, i suck."
i guess it's better to have a couple of close friends than a bunch that mean nothing to you. Even if this is true, i still can't help but want more than i already have. Maybe it's just me being greedy and not appreciative but, what do you expect from me? I'm a teen with raging hormones and mood swings.

i just always feel like i'm being compared to my brother all the time and how he can have like millions of close friends while i only have a few. thanks, way to make me feel crappy. i appreciate it.

and everyday i wake up and tell myself it's going to be a better day but, hey...i guess optimism isn't enough for change these days. now what? i always tell myself that it'll get better and i just have to live life everyday like it's my last but, as you can see...it's not working out so well.

i sound so depressing and gay.

i hate people who always complain about their lives and crap but, here i am.
hi hypocrite.

but, i guess it is my blog and i can do whatever the heck i want.

i guess i just hate when people post bulletins on myspace or something saying that their life sucks and stuff. now that's gaaaaaaay.

my life doesn't suck, no it doesn't but, sometimes i just wish for more.
i've always been a daydreamer and i guess that's been the death of me.
i have expectations and dreams that never come true. suuuuuuucks for me.
and darn being a hopeless romantic.
i always think that hey! one day it's gonna happen and i'm only a freshman but, it's kinda hard to stick with that motto when all around me people are falling in like.
please, if there's something wrong with me...do tell.
do i smell?
do i have stuff stuck in my teeth?
am i horrendously nasty looking?

i'll wear a bag over my head if that's what it takes.

...just kidding...that's just degrading and weird.

anyways, i have to go do homework and stuff.

see yah.