and that's love

so i'm eating and all of a sudden the topic of marriage and love comes up...joy.
i've always been an optimist and a hopeless romantic but, i don't know now-a-days.
so as i was stabbing the carrots in my salad, my brother and dad went into this in depth convo about love and stuff (things they've both experienced) and where am i stuck in this convo? that's just it, i'm not.

i know i'm just a freshie and there's time for all these things but, i can't help but want to experience something.
if not love, something close to it.

sure, people say that it's impossible to fall in love at such a young age but what do they know?
it can happen...right?
or...
maybe that's just my hopeless romantic part speaking.

i've always wanted to know how it'd feel like to get a hug every day or maybe even a smile from a boy that i am in like with and is in like with me.
i guess time can only tell.

BUT NO!

girls i see have had three, four, five boyfriends by now and me...zilch, zero, nada.
i guess you can call those girls sluts or whatnot but, when i'm in the moment speaking with them, i can't help but feel left out and childish.

it's like i haven't experienced this whole other world that people are partying in right now.

it's not like i'm in any rush to do "stuff" cause i could honestly care less but, i really just want that feeling of butterflies in my stomach.


i guess i've liked people this year and yeah but nothing serious and they've all turned out to be douche's.
just my luck.

they're a douch and apparently i'm not:
pretty
skinny
short
funny
nice
cute
smart
whoreish
outgoing
talkative
or
fun
enough to be around.
thanks.
that does a lot for a person's self esteem.

prince charming is bound to show up someday right?
maybe he just got lost on the way.