my life is

in a frenzy and i'm just the one looking in from a distance.

poor you.

remember...i love you !

cock a doodle do.

went to bahara's HUUGE house for the first time on friday.
we had the beeest time ever.
we watched tv and movies in her media room, swam and durkaaed into the pool, ate at mama lucco's, talked, and ate junk food to our heart's content.

i haven't seen her in forever and i was kinda nervous but, hey! things never get awkward when we're together and i hope it stays that way.
i can't believe she's not going to DB this year ):

it still hasn't really kicked in yet but, i know we'll still stay close.

anyways, the day after, we went to the shoppes and ate crap loads of food once more.
chipotle. jamba juice. cherry on top.
that actually doesn't sound like that much but, it was.

then sadly, when we were all half dead and falling asleep, she had to go home ):

best friend ever, and it's gonna stay that way.

COCK A DOODLE DOO.
and that's your wake up call.
HAHAH.
good times, good times.

heartbroken.

well, today was the last time i got to see wall my cousins until who knows when.
it was a pretty awesome day up until the part where we had to say goodbye.

it was heart wrenching to say goodbye to the two cousins i'm closest to but, it was just as equally horrible to say goodbye to the cousins i'm not as close with.

this trip, well...it was the hardest to jump start the talking and bonding part with my family because of the fact that i can hardly speak korean and they can hardly speak english but, i know truly know what it means when people say that actions speak louder than words.

to tell you the truth, now that i think of it, most of the communication that i have ever had with my cousins here in korea were actions and that's what i think makes us have an even stronger bond.

from the first awkward meeting to the last super wild and crazy one, i know that through all that's happened, we've grown closer.

i can honestly say that this has been the saddest goodbye.
i didn't want to get into the car and leave all my family behind.
i know that everyone didn't want to express how sad they really were and i know that although we were all covering up our pain with last laughs and petty games we all were just dreading the part where we actually had to go our separate ways.
and when my aunt started to cry, it just brought forth a rush of emotion.
i know that she's been through hard times these past few months and the fact that i got to see her happy for the past few weeks has been the best.

i don't know what it's going to be like saying goodbye to my grandparents tomorrow.
i really am dreading it.
i know that i'm going to cry because only God knows when i'll see them again.

my hearts broken, it's never been this hard to leave my family.
just the fact that this is probably the last time we'll all meet and travel around as a family kills me.

i know this blog is really awkwardly written but, i just can't find the words to explain what it feels like.

the whole fam.
my cousins and grandparents.
rafting down the tiniest stream with the two cousins i'm closest to.
ready to go river rafting down an actual river.
my great grams is adorable.
have you ever seen such an adorable pair of grandparents?!

so.

i'm really dreading school starting.
it's gonna suck.

never really dug school.

well, today was quite uneventful like most.

i got back from the jeju islands yesterday and well that trip kinda sucked.
talk about being po'ed for most of the trip.
i blame that one on pms though.

well, there's not much going on.
yes.

i can't help but feel

a tad dissapointed.
not gonna lie.

anyways...
i went to a shop called high tracks today. it was pretty much the coolest place ever. it was like a fred flares kinda thing. and i got this one thing that i'm saving for this one person. it's pretty uber cool. it was pretty flippin hot though. surprisingly i wasn't sweating like a beast though.

i still feel a bit dissapointed.
it's quite stupid actually.
stupid heifen gay wad butt face brain of mine.
it needs to learn how to shut off.

i miss home but, i also don't want to go back.
i think things are gonna be different.
i just hope everything plays out well.

not looking forward to school starting.
summer seemed so short.
eff you summer school.

this is quite unnerving.
i dont even know if i spelled that right.

i don't know what to do but, i do know that it's a long way down...

disconnected.

from the world.

i haven't talked to someone that can speak english (besides my family) in the longest time.

having the time of my life here but, i'm to worried about how hard it's gonna be to get back into shape that it kinda sucks.

not much to say.

WAIT !
i lied.

i did take some uber cool pictures!
and my grams said she'd buy me a uber cool camera.
so it's all goooooood.
the condition was that i had to drink a glass of tomato jucie (nastaaay) and obviously i did, so yeap.
nikon d6o, be mine.

holy crapper.

i am so out of shape.

all i've been doing is eating -_-

my grandparents do not know when to stop feeding me.

the food is good though...i gotta give them that one.

anyways, saw my great grandma and my great aunt yesterday and today.

my great grams is the cutest little lady you'll ever meet. no joke.

sucks that i won't be able to see her till whenever i come back to korea.

well, tomorrow i'm going up to the mountains for a couple of days with my whole family, that should be fuuuuuhn.

it's uber hot here, i sweat even when i'm on the computer just typing -_-

LAMESAUCE.