spitting on concrete is not attractive.

yes.

today was a good day.

i feel really HYPER.

i love shannon rauls.

she is my favorite white girl.

she totally made my day yesterday.

love her to death.





I WANT TO CARVE PUMPKINS !

spitting on concrete is not attractive.

halloween.

the more i say it, the weirder it sounds.

i got to meet all of bahara's new friends. they're pretty cool people. and ridiculously nice. I feel a lot better knowing that she's going to a new school where she has met a lot of really nice friends.

not much to say.

i am absolutely obsessed with reading the blogs on mentalfloss and how stuff works.

it's been pretty tough lately.
i hope things get better.

but ima trooper ! so i'll get by.

it's pretty strange how this year has turned out.
it has most definitely been a horrible year.

it all started off with ollie dying.
and has just gone downhill from there.

i really hope that 2010 will be better.

i know that people have it worse but, all the things that have gone wrong really have a way of bringing me down.

i know i complain a lot but, who doesn't?

i'd like to believe that i'm an optimistic person and a happy soul but, sometimes it's really hard.

i don't really have a passion for things that i used to love and it may be that it's a time for change but, i could be wrong. maybe i just need some inspiration.

it scares me.

what if i never find that inspiration? what if things never start going my way?

things have been quite...what's the word...dull and dreary.

i know a lot of people who have been having turdly times lately.
i hate how everyone seems to be depressed lately.
and i to not add to that hot mess, we should be more optimistic.
everyone needs a break.
i think i wanna plan a party.

smiley face stickers and pep talks

i've had countless pep talks from my daddy this week.

it's been quite strange to tell you the truth.

i'm not really one to complain about life because it's always been fairly terrific but, i don't really know nowadays.

it feels like i've never really gotten to just have fun for so long.

i've always had to worry about soccer in the back of my mind and to tell you the truth, it's getting quite frustrating.

The competition that's involed with it just gets to me sometimes. I'm not even that much of a competitive person!

I'm not one for competing, i'd much rather mellow out and relax.

Who knows what's going to happen.

All i know is that a lot of change is going to happen soon.

I can feel it.

I haven't been so unhappy since last time this happened to me.

at least i know my family and friends are there for me.

AND.

certain people are just so full of it.

i hate these people.

uh,

i have so much to do.

and i know i have a lot to do but, i dont do any of it.

i'm getting really lazy these i think there was a bug on my leg.

but yeah, i'm getting really lazy these days.

i wanna go all out this holiday season and decorate my house !

and i wanna have a halloween partay.

zen out.

i guess some people were just born crazy.

yesterday was fuuun.

got to catch up with all the friends i haven't spoken to in a while.

i'm really up for some chicken nuggets right now.

i eat a lot.

i hate ap book reports.

i kinda wanna shank some people right now.

specifically two.

maybe even three.

i think it's a lot easier to read when blogs are spaced out like this.

uhh, yes.

thank you father for making me realize that i do not have to play soccer anymore if i do not want to.

you're the best.

i think i might actually contemplate this thought.

i get distracted way to easily.

i wonder what i'm going to wear to school tomorrow.

oh ruubz, my life is a mess.

EFF YOU

SCHOOL.

hmm...

look at me trying to make this blog all fancy schmancy.
well, today was okay besides the fact that i pretty much failed my math quiz -_-
how lame.
oh, and the fact that i might have practice on friday.
which is minimum day !
what turdly people to consider this nonsense.
my neighbors dogs were socializing with each other and one of them is out to get me.
i tried giving it a treat and it almost bit my hand off !
i'm pretty proud that i finished my APBR without pulling an all nighter.
uhh, i can't really complain about anything at the moment.
oh, my mom sent me a text message from barcelona(:

I AM SO STOKED FOR KNOTT'S SCARY FARM.
yes.
i thought i'd just throw that out there.
oh ferret, you darn child.
have you changed your hair?
i'm not so sure but, if you haven't ruuubz will be quite upset.

well...

i had the shittiest morning...

and after all the crying and thrashing around i've promised myself that i will no longer cry over the stupid things in life.
there's not enough time for that shit.

well, the rest of the day has been whatever...
i'm home alone and i've been pretty occupied.
i did have a moment where i really wanted to talk to someone but, i'm good now (:
i had a pretty intense convo with my cousin about charlie bone and endowments. yeahh...
and well, all i've done for the remainder of my afternoon alone is sing along with people on tv and make stuffing.
i just made some stuffing and i am now doing those itunes shuffle quiz things. they're pretty nifty.
and i can't stop listening to that song trouble by nevershoutnever!
i should be doing my homework but, i'm not really in the mood to at the moment.
uhh. oh! i wrote another letter for myself to open later.
i'm really looking forward to forgetting what i say and then one day finding what i said and being like, "whoa!" and yeahh.

well, i just can't wait till this weekend is over.
tomorrow is gonna be hell.
hopefully not.

well, surprisingly i'm not in to bad of a mood considering what happened today.
i'm really good at cheering myself up, bahah.
i guess i don't have to worry about slipping into terminal depression. HHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAH. inside joke. with myself. bhaha.
see. i'm hilarious.

i've decided.

that i don't care.

i just burst out into that one song from 2NE1 after i said that -_-

i need story ideas for the paper !