this nonsense.

is it possible to feel like crying and smiling at the same time?

i guess that would be classified as tears of joy?

well, that's not exactly how i feel right now.

is it possible that one person can make your whole day yet totally ruin it at the same time?

i guess it is, cause that's what's happening to me right now.

is it possible to like someone so much yet hate them at the same time?

i guess it is, cause this boy is driving me crazy.

i don't know how i get myself caught up in these things.
it's killing me.
i can't focus correctly.
i always wait for his texts.
i don't think i've looked at my phone so many times in such short periods of time.

and i know it won't ever work out.
cause, you'll be leaving soon.
the hopeless romantic side of me says that everything will be fine, but the practical side of me says that nothing will ever happen.

i despise you for coming into my life.
yet i always wonder if you're thinking about me as much as i think about you.

i sound like a freak.